I actually don't have anything to say. Just thought it was time to get the old entry off here. Still getting things ready for college, and OMFG would it stop raining already??? Does anyone realize how miserable walking dogs in the rain is, especially when it's a holiday weekend and there's three times the usual amount? Geeeesh.

Edit: WHY ARE TEXAS HOUSES SO BEAUTIFUL AND YET DIRT CHEAP??

Alright, so. Life.

First off, coming up on 7 months with Jason. On the one hand, it's like, "Already?" On the other, it's most certainly "WTF? ONLY 7? I've known this boy FOREVER."

Secondly, someone in the house absconded with my tablet pen the other day. This makes me very sad, upset, and frustrated, because I cant get a replacement without buying a whole new tablet. I'm considering getting a used one just for the pen if I can't find this one. It was on the table, and then when I came to put it away, it wasn't. Just saying.

Got a new kitten recently. Her name is Cheno She's a long haired cat. Very gorgeous.

Going to my first con in a couple weeks. Yay! A day away from the house AND around anime freaks! Whoo hoo. Not to mention a day off work. Though I have been very happy with my last few paychecks Jason's proud, even if he DOES think my job isn't worth getting hurt all the time. Ah, well.

Speaking of anime, I'm not as into it anymore. Like....at all. Its still an interest, but it just doesn't offer the extreme satisfaction it did before. My interests are becoming more and more intellectual, which brings me to my last point.

College. Starting on March 30th. Go me

Guess who got a tablet for Christmas?


Yep, I did. And with it came a 30-day trial of CS3. Since I was going to be unbearably sad when my trial ended, I went online and found a clearance sale on it, annnnnndddd......Found it for $179 including tax and free shipping. Oh yes. Elin made out like a BANDIT. Jason says he "still thinks there are cheaper ways..." but whatever xD He can think all he wants but I'ma CMOA and go the legal way. He doesn't draw anyway, so it really doesn't concern him. Besides the fact that my electronics are being holy terrors lately (and I need to buy a new phone, mine keeps putting itself in airplane mode and not allowing me to turn it back on) I can afford it. Even at the crappy $7.00 an hour my cheap-o boss pays us and college stuffs to pay for. Yup, sure can. Which reminds me....*goes off to send SAT scores to GSU*

Midnight Sun is put on hold indefinitely.

Why?

Because idiots who call themselves fans leaked, read, and distributed the first twelve chapters.

First of all, that's completely illegal, especially since the book was slated to actually be published. This is stealing, and it is robbing Stephenie of hard earned money that she would get from people actually buying the book. It's dishonest, and it ruins the integrity of the final product. What kind of person does that to an author they supposedly adore? "I got my hands on these chapters somehow so I'm going to post them on the internet!!" And worse, the 'fan' who reads them. "Oh, I can't wait for Stephenie to finish Midnight Sun so I'm just going to read these leaked chapters!!" Steph has said time and again that she wants her books to be experienced in a certain way, and you ruin that effect when you read the leaked version. Not to mention that it was and is still in draft stages, so you're hurting Steph's artistic value and pride. Authors want nothing less than their best to be seen; if they choose to later show rough versions, then that is their choice. It's dishonest and pure hubris to think you have the right to steal and distribute someone else's intellectual property, especially before they're ready for it to be seen. A person's story is their baby; I'd be pretty pissed if someone kidnapped my baby and put it on display, too.

Secondly, I once again ask, how could you do that to Steph?? How many times has Steph said that her fans are the greatest in the world? How many times has she been proud to be our author? How many times has she declared how much she loves us and thanks us for our support?

And how many times has she been raped by the fandom in reply?

Stephenie Meyer has acted as the "second mom" figure to her fandom. She loves us. And in return, someone, who she has spent so much of her time doing extra things for so that we can cuddle up to our new Twilight saga addition, has completely betrayed her. And not just one someone. Many someones. Hundreds of someones. Yes, only one originally leaked it, but how many more jumped at this leak, read it, posted up spoilers for it, spread it and distributed it, and took pride in doing so? Those who read and distributed it are just as at fault as those who put it on the internet in the first place. How can you justify this as being okay?

Steph has worked so hard for us. She's really gone the extra mile. She manages her own myspace (unlike many celebrities), she talks to fans, she organizes proms, tours, readings, midnight release parties, quotes of the day, sneak peeks, all for us. She fought long and hard for a fourth book for us. Without her commitment to making us happy, we wouldn't have had Breaking Dawn. Love it or hate it, she fought long and hard for that book to be published, because she knew we wanted it. And Steph delivered. All she's ever asked in return is that we be honest, loyal fans, who help protect the integrity of her latest story. But no matter how much effort she puts out for us, it seems that some people within the fandom can't return the favor. Some people are so selfish that they have to have the chapters now, before Steph wants us to see them.

When you stoop that low, you're not a fan. You're just an selfish idiot who takes advantage of the person writing the story. If you really loved Twilight, if you really loved Steph, you wouldn't do that to her. You would wait. You would eagerly wait for her to finish and give her the pride and warmth of giving us Midnight Sun. She was going to write it and publish it because she knew we wanted it. And this is how she's been repaid. With the ultimate betrayal.

Not only that, but those of us who are honest fans, who are willing to stand in line, at midnight, in a crowded bookstore, not having once looked at any possibly leaked material, are now deprived of the story we were rooting for. We were doing the right thing, and true fans will continue to do the right thing and not read the leaked chapters, even if Steph has now posted them up. That's not a teaser; that's an author with no other option. Even now, she's trying to keep her fans honest. Even now, she's trusting us to make the right decision. But because of the leaked chapters, she's too upset to finish it. Stephenie still doesn't want us to read those chapters. But with no other choice, she's made them available to us.

I'm not going to read them. None of my friends are going to read them. Unlike some, we have some integrity. And unlike some, we respect Steph's wishes. Steph gave us the Twilight universe, and she has every right to take any further stories away. You wanted more? You wanted to see Jake and Renesmee later? You wanted to see what happens to Nahuel? You wanted perhaps an Alice and Jasper story?

Too bad. You probably won't get it. Steph has every right and every reason not to give it to you.

And all because some 'fans' decided to rape her yet again. Too bad it was the straw that broke the camel's back, isn't it?

Oh the night makes you a star
And it holds you cold in its arms
You’re the one to whom nobody verses I love you
Unless you say it first
So you lie there holding your breath
And its strange how soon you forget
That you’re like stars
They only show up when it’s dark
Cause they don’t know their worth

And I think you need to stop following misery’s lead
Shine away shine away shine away
Isn’t it time you got over how fragile you are
We’re all waiting
Waiting on your supernova
Cause that’s who you are
And you’ve only begun to shine

There are times when the poets and pornstars align and
You won’t know who to believe in
Well that’s a good time to be leavin’
And the past knocks on your door
And throws stones at your window at 4 in the morning
Well maybe he thinks it’s romantic
He’s crazy but you knew that before

And I think you need to stop following misery’s lead
Shine away Shine away Shine away
Isn’t it time you got over how fragile you are
We’re all waiting
Waiting on your supernova
Cause that’s who you are
And you’ve only begun to shine

Yeah you’ve only begun to shine
Won’t you shine shine shine shine over shadow
Shine shine shine shine over shadow
Shine shine shine shine over

And I think you need to stop following misery’s lead
Shine away Shine away Shine away
Isn’t it time you got over how fragile you are
We’re all waiting
Waiting on your supernova
Cause that’s who you are
And you’ve only begun to shine

Yeah you’ve only begun to shine
Yeah you’ve only begun to shine
Yeah you’ve only begun to shine